I had no idea why am I thinking this way or what. It's been a draining weekend till today, even after dinner. Can't handle it so head out to Starbucks for a cup of Ice Earl Grey.

I haven't been a foul temper person for most who know me; or rather maybe for certain issues that I'm rather sensitive to. Whatever it is, I had no idea what's with me since enlistment. National Service really does change a man uh? I haven't seen the positive change in me yet,personally that's what I think. On the other hand, negative changes have been surfacing slowly over the past 7months! I do realize that I had a temper but I don't lose it easily. C'mon for those who know me really well, how many times had I flared up before?

My temper seems to be getting shorter and my patience was brought to a new low level. Probably heaty(?), lack of rest or hormonal imbalance(?) LOL! I think I couldn't accept jokes that easily as before already. Especially those kind when I'm blamed for no proper reasons upon my arrival at the spot. Is like someone just pulled off my safety ring in the brain and I'm just going to retaliate back. I experienced it once in BMT and once more tonight. I realize this is something I need to change. Period. 

Just weird since Friday evening. Probably not enough rest and whatever reasons, I just get real jumpy and stuff. I need to get my inner peace back. Kinda disrupted probably not enough rest recently. Oh well?

Probably just gonna surf the net awhile more before I head home.